To Remind Me When I Forget
your grandmother used to pick coffee
your other grandmother made stews from scratch
your grandfathers tried to feed your parents and their siblings
but the work sometimes didn't want to give,
was too stubborn and too unpredictable
and the men who worked it were too frustrated
came home drunk,
sunburnt,
dehydrated and unfulfilled
hitting their women scratched an itch
too hard to describe with words
threats as jagged as the hands
landing, breaking skin in more ways
than physically
sigh
my grandmother died seven years ago
she left me with questions
so many questions
memories of her picking mushrooms
in the woods behind her brick house
stretching out a gardenia for me
to smell for the first time
i ask my other grandmother to tell me
how she grew up
what did she do
what she was like
and she starts crying
shattered stars in her eyes
tells me to please not ask her